Living in France had been my dream since I was sixteen years old. I had other dreams as well, some realized, some not. But France was a dream realized.
Dreams change, though. Some are replaced by new dreams. When France is no longer the dream, what is next? How does one transition from one dream to the next?
It was time to say goodbye to France. I was ready, but still. I collect people the way that some people collect coins or dolls. It is always hard to say goodbye to people, not so much to places.
Time passed quickly, and before I knew it, it was my last day in Paris. I had one more place to go, one place that remained unvisited, unseen by my eyes: the apartment in the fifteenth arrondissement where Rose Wilder Lane lived in the 1920’s – 8 Square Desnouettes. I went alone, sort of to say goodbye to the city and hello to Rose.
Rose was Laura Ingalls Wilder’s only child and a prolific writer herself. Laura was my inspiration to become a writer for children. Another dream realized.
When I crossed the boulevard to Square Desnouettes, I expected to see a plaque of some sort, denoting Rose’s residence. There was nothing. I wanted to write “Rose Was Here” on the wall, but I didn’t, of course. Just standing there, in the place where Rose came and went was inspiring.
The next morning I boarded a plane and headed home. I had lived in France. Finally. And I said goodbye to her in the best way possible – with Rose, another expatriate writer who eventually came home.
Thanks so much for posting these photos, Stacy. I probably won’t get back to Paris, but now I know where Rose lived then–and where she was mostly happy. FYI, she sublet it at the end of 1921 and went to Berlin, then to Albania, Armenia,Constantinople, and Baghdad–and then back to Rocky Ridge. Such a traveler!
She is such an inspiration, Susan! Glad you enjoyed the photos of her apartment. ❤
One of your most beautiful posts.
Thank you for writing this.
Thank you for reading, Guap. ❤
Sweet nostalgia. How wonderful that you were able to visit where Rose stayed in Paris. I had forgotten that you and I share a Laura Wilder Ingalls passion! I wonder if Rose cried when she had to go home…or whether she used it for inspiration in her own writing.
I don’t know if Rose cried or not, Kathy. She seemed (from what I’ve read) to have a wanderlust – never attaching herself to places. She loved to travel and was quite adventurous. Maybe she felt a sadness, but she kept going nevertheless. It is what I must do as well. ❤
I can almost imagine how you must have felt on your last day in Paris as your writing brought so many emotions to me, sadness that you were leaving your friends and leaving behind a realised dream, yet joy at having realised that dream. I understand the feelings you would have felt having walked in the steps of Rose also, who has inspired you to write. What a wonderful feeling that must have been. I’m sure there must have been a few tears that day. 🙂
Oh my, Joanne. I often write for catharsis and blogging means I’m taking y’all on this emotional ride with me – sometimes I forget this!
It was a day mixed with both sadness and joy. How can that be? ❤
Dearest Stacy,
We know that feeling, having worked and lived in Italy, it is kind of hard to amputate yourself from the people you grew to love. But that is life and it makes us able for knowing those emotions that others never will explore… How sad!
Funny that you Grandmère also used to think about the 100 brush strokes for the hair. Lovely memories for you.
Hugs and enjoy the US of A as a new found treasure.
Mariette
Thank you so much for responding, Mariette – it is nice to know that someone else understands that feeling of “amputation,” as you so aptly call it. I am looking forward to my life in America again, though – a treasure, for sure. ❤